A Fool's Dream ??

Loss of Faith

I leaped and reach out my hand,
yet it's not high enough to touch the stars.
I ran till my lungs begged for air,
yet it's not faster than a gust of wind.
I screamed till tears streamed from my eyes,
yet it's not loud enough to be heard by anyone close.
I prayed for the impossible to happen till I was lost in the transient of my thoughts,
yet maybe it's just too difficult to realize.


NEVER

Speak, I could, but never fluent.
Write, I could, but never expressive.
Listen, I could, but never understood.
Sing, I could,but never in tune.

Jump, I could, but never far.
Run, I could, but never fast.
Climb, I could, but never high.
Dribble, I could, but never with a ball.

Read, I could, but never before a crowd.
Think, I could, but never acted upon.
Dance, I could, but never with a girl.
Yet again,
Never, I could, say never.




Looking at those who are blessed with the gift of the gab...the natural flair for words...the athleticism to fare decently in sports...the movie star good looks or the charming personality to woo a crowd......I cannot help but feel rather inferior. I used to question myself what am I good at...what are my niche areas...mostly I was left speechless. Agreed. I have a rather low self esteem when it concerns my abilities and decision making skills...often doubting myself.

Perhaps it is a twist of fate. My vocation maybe monotonous and dull...on the flip side...I view it as an opportunity to ponder over my inner thoughts and to take things as it goes...letting nature to take its course. Though I may be inept in more areas than one...I have never lost hope in my search of something I think I may be actually good at.

Anyway...in a few hours time...Arsenal FC will battle Barcelona in the Champions League Final. It will be the first time in history that Arsenal will appear in the final...adding on to the fact that they will be playing in a new stadium next season...and the impending future of its skipper hinging upon the outcome of this game...there will be much incentives for the team to do the club proud. Though deemed overwhelmingly as the underdogs...I still believe that with the grit and determination displayed in the previous rounds...They have every bit of a chance to claim the top honours. Well......whoever says one cannot dream ?


Sometimes People Dream...Yet no matter how Impossible...the Hope to realize must not be Diminished.

A song of hope

Find The Way
Performed by Nakashima Mika

English Translation :

Why do you, with your small hands,
try to carry all these wounds on your back?
It isn't for any one person's sake, please don't lose sight of that
Why am I, while hesitating,
unable to escape?
What I hope for is the sun, the sun to light the way...

Find the way
Though in this glowing cosmos our hands can't quite reach
We depend on only our resounding love
Because at the end of the path we've traveled we'll find the light
You'll find the way

You said, "I had a long dream...
It was a very sad dream,
but what I saw wasn't one bit clouded..."
I said, "It's okay to cry,
because I'll stay by your side no matter what."
What I wish for is a hand, a hand to reach up to me...

Find the way
Even without words, even without wings to fly on
As long as we stand our ground in the wind
Even if we're the first ones afflicted with this pain...

Giving an answer surely isn't everything
I'll be patient, it's all right, and so are you...

Find the way
Though in this glowing cosmos our hands can't quite reach
We depend on only our resounding love
Because at the end of the path we've traveled we'll find the light
Find the way
Even without words, even without wings to fly on
As long as we stand our ground in the wind
At the end of the path we've traveled we finally saw the light...
You'll find the way


Romaji Lyrics :

doushite kimi wa chiisa na te de
kizu wo seoou to suru no darou?
dareka no tame dake janai miushinawanaide
doushite boku wa mayoinagara
nigedasu koto dekinai no darou?
nozomu no wa hikari sasu hi wo hi wo...

find the way
kagayaku sora [uchuu*] ni te wa todokanakutemo
hibiku ai dake tayori ni
susunda michi no saki hikari ga mitsukaru kara
you'll find the way

kimi wa itta nagai yume wo mita
totemo kanashii yume datta to
soredemo sono sugata wa sukoshi mo kumoranai
boku wa itta naite iinda to
zutto soba ni ite ageru yo
hoshii no wa dakiageru te wo te wo...

find the way
kotoba nakute mo tobu hane wa nakute mo
midasu kaze ni makenu you ni
ima dare yori hayaku itami ni kizuketa nara...

kotae wo dasu koto kitto subete janai
aseranakute iinda yo anata mo...

find the way
kagayaku sora [uchuu*] ni te wa todokanakutemo
hibiku ai dake tayori ni
susunda michi no saki hikari ga mitsukaru kara
find the way
kotoba nakutemo tobu hane wa nakutemo
midasu kaze ni makenu you ni
susunda michi no saki tashika na hikari wo mita...
you'll find the way



* 'sora' (sky) is the word that is actually said in the song, but in the lyrics it says 'uchuu', which means 'universe' or 'cosmos'.


I was never an ardent fan of Japanese pop songs with the exception of the few that actually caught my attention...mostly due to my ZERO understanding of the language. Personally I feel that the lyrics embodies the soul of the song...thus I was never able to fully appreciate J-pop music. Anyway...I was watching the reruns of the gundam seed series when I heard this song. It evoked a certain sense of heart rendering emotions within me as I listened intently to the emotive vocals of Mika Nakashima and complemented aptly with the closing scenes of the anime series.

The song was meaningful...spreading the message of hope...something I had always believed in.

Sad...but....optimistic