The start of yet another chapter of my army stint...

Time passes by swiftly...with a blink of an eye...yet another 3 months has passed me by ever so silently and quickly. The end of my FDC course should be a joyous occasion..filled with cries of relief and shouts of euphoria...yet the mood has somewhat been muted by the sombre misfiring incident that happened to me last wednesday. The fear of not knowing what lies ahead hovers above me throughout the past fews days...dealing me with a sense of anxiety and pain that borders on excrutiating propotions. The pain is not entirely derived from having to accept the fact that the incident had occured on me.....rather it is the wait that pains me...

Anyway....to keep my mind away from the constant pondering of the matter......I went to the AMK library yesterday. To escape from reality perhaps...Read a book by Rich Wallace.."Wrestling Sturbridge". It was a good book...as is the rest of the series...with the underlying moral of the story being to move on and not remain obstinate about a specific aspect of life. Many a times in one's obsession to achieve something...one often neglects the other more essential beings and surroundings of life. This might just be the lesson taught to me in the most unexpected and astonishing manner.

There was also a subplot that seemed rather interesting...in the course of courting the girl of his dreams...the protagonist pondered over a rather thought inducing statement...."Have I fallen in love with her or was I merely in love with the IDEA of having a girlfriend ?" There was never a doubt that there were flashes of infatuation in my life...yet pondering upon it...more questions rather than answers seemed to surface. Do I pine for someone who understands and fathom my feelings or do I pine to be understood and accepted ?...